I just wish someone would give me permission to cut. It would relieve so much stress. I would feel so much better. Or would I, would the release be great and the guilt be worse?  It hurts. I hurt.

He has moved on, has a girlfriend, and has had sex with her already. We broke up last month. I want a life, he has a life. I want happiness and he has it. I know that I am bettering myself but damn it hurts so much.

*cries* *cries* *cries* *cries*