Just caught up on your post, I'm glad you got the card, thank you.  I can't wait to get yours!

And, unfourtunatly, it is kinda like lying to yourself, HOWEVER....remember that the site is public so you can be honest with yourself but you dont have to share every detail.  If theres something you dont want to bring up then dont bring it up, this is YOUR place to vent and write about YOUR life and the things that you feel you need to write about.  Your post dont have to make sence to anyone except yourself.  You should feel safe here...and dont worry, we all lie to ourselves sometimes, its a way of protecting our hearts and even our minds.  ::hugs:: I hope everythings okay, you can always private message me if you need someone to talk to.  <3 you.