I just keep begging him for the truth and he wont tell me. I am BEGGING. I explain to him it will help me heal and he still doesn't. I'm never going to know am i? *sigh*

I did find some interesting websites...yuck...how can he tell me he loves me? Idk...I can't heal from what i don't know. I know something is wrong but i don't know what it is so i cant deal with it. Instead i have to deal with pain that i have no idea what from. I wish i could know the truth... =( I wish he'd understand it would be the right thing to do.