I just don't know anymore.

He lies, he gets mad at me when I do anything. I will never tell himthe truth about anything because I know he wont tell me anything. He will never tell me the truth so he doesn't deserve the truth. I am not even caring at all anymore. He says things to me that are insanely hurtful and so double sided. He tells me he hopes I enjoy the sex with the guy I'm with, yet he's the one going out with what ever women he can. I just laugh and go along with it. He says he drives by the house all the time. Let him. I don't do anything and even if I did, he would have NO room to say anything. He makes sexy videos "for my eyes only" ha thats a lot of bullshit. Oh well. It's laughable at this point. He's stupid, all the girls that still follow his every movement are stupid, all dumb.

Meh. On the plus side my weight loss is spactacular. Amazing what anorexia will do. I have been eating for the past week and a half cause my dad is here. I feel nasty when I do eat. When he leaves it will be back to the normal hardly eating at all diet. 20 lbs in 2 months, Yes I think I can do that again.